This post documents the thought process behind the third presentation format for the loose leaf journal I am creating during the MCP501 module of my First Year Project. My First Year project is titled “Self Portrait of a Female with Epilepsy”. A visual documentation of the process is not currently available, but will follow in the next weeks, and can then be found in the MCP501 Gallery. The journal pages are the initial steps in a series of self portraits which will take non-traditional approaches to the materials and techniques of painting, serve as a basis and archive of thoughts, images and resources which contribute to the various visual and written components of my First Year project, and are a key element in the presentation of the visual component of the project.
In my September-October 2014 Monthly Blog Post I described two presentation formats for the loose leaf journal pages and created two galleries documenting the process behind the creation of those pieces. So, why create a third presentation format and is it necessary?
I felt it necessary to create an additional, physical-experienced based presentation because the presentation of the pages in the piece “Wanderland”, which is meant as a way for the viewer to physically experience the pages, is very limited in who, how, when and where it can be experienced. It is a very site specific piece, therefore I am seeking with “Just Between Me and You” to create a piece with a more flexible mode of presentation.
I intend to bring the piece “Look In Glass” to the Winter Residency in New York City this January. While I find this particular presentation format has its own strengths in how it addresses both the issues raised in my project as well as how it visually presents the journal pages, I also believe it to be just one way of understanding and looking at the work and issues which are raised. The narrowness of its presentation is a part of what I am addressing in my project, which is the limitations in our understanding of the “truth” of something, limitations which we often place upon ourselves because we convince ourselves that the knowledge we have is all there is to know. I do not see “Look In Glass” as a stand alone piece. For it to reveal more of the “truth” it must exist in relation to the physical presentation and experiencing of the journal pages; therefore “Look In Glass” will be presented in New York City in conjunction with “Just Between Me and You”.
Like both “Wanderland” and “Look In Glass” the presentation of the journal pages in “Just Between Me and You” allude to the writings of Lewis Carroll in Alice’s Adventures In Wonderland and Through The Looking-Glass. Like both previously conceived pieces the emphasis on how the pages are presented in “Just Between Me and You” lies in the intimacy of the presentation. The pages are not presented in a way in which comfortably more than a single individual can experience them at a time. The experience is kept between the artist and a solitary viewer. Similar to the format of “Wanderland” the pages are made available to the viewer to grab hold of in his or her hands and examine. Unlike the experience of “Wanderland” which physically challenges the viewer by sending him or her on a journey through a space in which the pages have been randomly and chaotically hung so that accessing all the pages and examining them closely may or may not be possible for every viewer; “Just Between Me and You” is a quieter, less physically challenging presentation. It is a presentation that is accessible to every viewer as long as he or she is willing to take the time and make the effort to sit down, pick up, hold and closely examine each page of the journal.
“Just Between Me and You” is “Wanderland” in a box.
It is a box whose exterior is swathed in the black, glitter vinyl that covers the floor and forms the pathway the viewer follows through “Wanderland”. The interior of the box, its walls, are covered with the soft and silencing black felt which covered the walls of “Wanderland”. The box sits on a table in a slightly darkened room. A spotlight shines on the table so that the viewer is provided sufficient light by which to closely look at and examine each page. The viewer takes a seat at the table in front of the box. The box is closed, tied up like a gift package with the same Red "Classic 10" 100% Mercerized Cotton crochet thread used in “Wanderland” to connect and suspend the pages. Attached to the string is a note to the viewer “Open me”.
If the viewer chooses to follow his or her curiosity, he or she will untie the thread and remove the lid of the box. Inside the box he or she will then find the pages of the journal, wrapped in the black tulle from which the pages were suspended in “Wanderland”. Clipped to the bundle with a silver binder clip, like the clips used in “Wanderland” to connect the pages to the red thread, is another note. On the second note the viewer will read “Unwrap me”.
Should the viewer decide to continue on this journey and unwrap the bundle of pages, he or she will encounter a third note on top of the pile of pages. This note instructs the viewer to “Look at me”.
At this point the viewer has been given full access and permission by the artist to hold, look, closely encounter and physically interact with the pages on his or her own terms. Should he or she work his or her way completely through the ~100 pages, at the bottom of the bundle, between the last page and the tulle, he or she will find a fourth and final note: “Put me back together. Keep this just between me and you.”
Ideally the viewer has spent the time to look at all the pages and after reading the final note re-wraps the pages, places them and the notes back in the box, replaces the lid, re-ties the thread. But that is beyond my control. As the artist I only provide the instructions in the notes, it is up to the viewer to choose to follow them or not.
Concerning the order of the pages in the box: unlike the random hanging of the pages in the “Wanderland” installation, I intend to place the pages in the box in the order in which they were created. However once the piece is in the control of the viewers this order most likely will become disrupted. It will be interesting to see how “out of order” the pages become as multiple viewers interact with it.
It is my intention that the viewer encounter this piece prior to “Look In Glass”. I want to emphasize the value of the close, physical encounter with the artwork over the distanced, mental encounter the viewer has with the cropped, shifting and altered digital recording of the pages confined within the mirrored box. In addition, the physical encounter with the actual pages in “Just Between Me and You” challenges the viewer to make the effort, give his or her time and share a physical space with the pages. How willing is he or she to do this? How much is he or she willing to give of his or herself? How much of his or herself is he or she willing to invest to become a part of the art?
Then, after this experience, the viewer moves on to “Look in Glass”. Now the viewer is no longer given the option to choose how much or how far he or she wants to go on this journey. The light emanating from the box will draw the viewer closer to it. He or she will glance into the box. How long he or she looks is still up to the viewer. But even if it is only a split second, when he or she glances into the box he or she will see not only the pages but also his or her reflection on top of the pages, alongside the pages, inside the box. He or she has become a part of the piece. The self portrait has become a portrait.